The Ache in the Empty

“My experience of life is that it is not divided up into genres; it’s a horrifying, romantic, tragic, comical, science-fiction…detective novel. You know, with a bit of pornography if you’re lucky.” -lan Moore

“Depression is real. Just because you’ve never had it doesn’t make it imaginary. Compassion is also real. And a depressed person may cling desperately to it until they are out of the woods. They may remember your compassion for the rest of their lives.” -Pearl


“Saying ‘you don’t have anything to be depressed about, your life is great’ is like saying ‘what do you mean you have asthma, there is loads of air in here.’” -Unknown

“You can do it you know. You can change this current story. ‘Almost’ is such a tragic and haunting word sometimes. Maybe burn that word entirely and just do it. You’ll figure it out as you go along.” -Victoria Erickson

“Your clarity doesn’t typically happen in everyday comfortable or distractedly busy moments. It’s faint and subtle and breathes from your body only when you’re ready. When you’re ready to be honest with yourself. When you’re ready to ask and actually listen.” -Victoria Erickson

“I have an entire forest living inside of me and you have carved your initials into every tree.” -Pavana

“The loveliest people are the ones who’ve been burnt and broken and torn at the seams, yet still send their open hearts into the world to mend with love again and again, and again.” -Victoria Erickson


“Forget obstacles, forget patterns. Show me your vision of perfection in an imperfect world. Tell me what spot calls to you while tracking fingers and eyes on a softly spinning globe. Tell me what’s necessary for your survival, what’s personal, what’s impossible, what’s gigantic, what’s beautiful. These lives are swift, and every moment pulsing. Precious.” -Victoria Erickson

“You will always fall in love, and it will always be like having your throat cut, just that fast.” -Catherynne M. Valente

“She is a year ago. She is the ache in the empty, the first time you changed your mind and the last time you were sorry about it. She is a city sleeping beside you, warm and vast and familiar, streetlights yawning and stretching, and you have never. You have never. You have never loved someone like this. She is your first stomachache. Your first panic attack and your favorite cold shower. A mountain is moving somewhere inside of you, and her handprints are all over it. Here. Here. Here, you love her. In the fractured morning, full of too tired and too sad, she is the first foot that leaves the bed. She is the fight in you, the winning and the losing battle floating like a shipwreck in your chest. When they ask you what your favorite moment is, You will say Her. You will always say Her.” -Caitlyn Siehl


“Some adult people live alone and carry on their lives like they’re fine; they put up a Christmas tree for themselves and make themselves coffee for one in the morning. I wake up and reach for the empty side of the bed. I wake up and feel lonely before I’ve put my feet on the floor.” -Rebeka Anne, I built myself as a home for two but I still live here alone


“I am the closing door. I am the goodbye letter on the kitchen counter
 and the shattered vase of flowers on
 the floor 
and the three in the morning, bags packed by the bed, airplane tickets in hand.” -Amanda Helm

“Everybody is identical in their secret unspoken belief that way deep down they are different from everyone else.” -David Foster Wallace

“Pursue some path, however narrow and crooked, in which you can walk with love and reverence.” -Henry David Thoreau

“Maybe I followed you too long like a stray, but you kept offering me milk. You have the sweetest shoulders. I want to come in and be yours; I’ve been unbelonging for a while. You have the nicest eyes. You have the warmest touch. This all feels like love to me, but it’s not, is it? You feel bad for my hunger, and for me.” -Rebeka Anne


“Strangers are sifting through my memories online and I am letting them. Is a burden still a burden if someone helps you carry it? What do you do with a heart this heavy? People are starting to stare in the streets and I just walk along blinking into the sunlight. Nobody said it would be this lonely. I’m falling asleep with pink smeared across my lips because no one is kissing them. I’m drinking cold coffee out of chipped mugs and muting the morning news. I’m staring at the hands of the man bagging my groceries, at the thick gold ring wrapping itself around his finger screaming to all the world that he’s worth it. That he’s found it. That he’s been found.” -Fortesa Latifi

“I hope you find a love that seems as natural as breathing the purest mountain air, and I hope you have a love that is as refreshing as a summer rain. Don’t settle for the smog of lazy love, or the thirst of failed promises; you should have someone that is as consistent as the sun, and as warm and inviting as only that wonderful light can bring.” -T.B. LaBerge

“I would like my life to be a statement of love and compassion — and where it isn’t, that’s where my work lies.” -Ram Dass

“There are darknesses in life and there are lights, and you are one of the lights — the light of all lights.” -Bram Stroker


“You are the freckles, you are the ink on my skin,
 you are the laugh lines.” -Tyler Knott Gregson

“And he took me home and kissed me till my heart looked like pulp and we undressed each other from the inside out and we loved ’til it was brimming and Mama, it was a disaster and it was devastating and it was light.” -Azra T

“I hate dating. I hate the way people date now. People nowadays date recklessly. We treat each other like we are trying on shoes: no matter how well something fits we still want to see how we look in something else. I want no part of that.” -Unknown

“When you reach your edge, soften.” -Victoria Erickson

“Romantic love is not the only love worth seeking. I’ve met so many people longing to be in love with somebody, to be rescued from their daily lives and swept into romantic bliss, when all around there are children, neighbors, friends and strangers also yearning for someone to connect with. Look around and notice — possibility is everywhere.” – Unknown

“I don’t want to look back in five years time and think, ‘We could have been magnificent, but I was afraid.’ In five years I want to tell of how fear tried to cheat me out of the best thing in life, and I didn’t let it.” -Unknown


“What you are today and what you will be in five years depends on two things: the people you meet and the books you read.” -Twyla Tharp

“Scorpio, it is possible to be a good person and a hot mess at the same time. Sagittarius, thankfulness is a full-time job. Capricorn, you are seen, heard, and believed. Aquarius, rest your body and spirit. Pisces, you do not deserve to hurt. Aries, hold your friends to a higher standard. Taurus, it is okay to not understand. Gemini, you are allowed to say no. Cancer, be your own heroine. Leo, you are powerful and unstoppable. Virgo, ask for what you need. Libra, let yourself love and be loved.” -Blythe Baird, Horoscopes

{So-sweet house, via @lily_rose on Instagram.}


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